The one before the home updates

(this post was written in 2021… You will notice that a lot has changed since)

Inala, exala… That’s what I have been telling myself this whole time since we made a move to continue putting our house together. Ok lets take a few steps back. The year was 2020 and it was the literal turn of the decade and we had just put blood, sweat and a whole lot of money to try make the house we were moving into to be somewhat habitable…because bruh!

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The one with the transition : update 1

Its the end of the week, it was better than the first week. I managed to sit on the work desk for a bit, it almost feels like I am figuring my way around here now. I feel relieved, a lot less anxious and things are beginning to look like they are coming together. We are far from completion, but we are slowly adapting to our space.

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My Birthday wish list

This year was supposed to be the year that my birthday was going to be lit lit. I had all these fantastic plans on how everything was going to be fantastic and for the first time since I was 21 years old, I was going to make a big deal of my birthday, but then we had to urgently” move house, and that kind of changed the whole course of .

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The one with the transition

I’m back to my weird writing times, today it’s just before I go to shower. It’s my first shower in the past 2 days because life and extremely depressive moods. The kind of spoon that life has fed me off of the past two days, has me shaking my head every two minutes. I have literally gone through all my emotions.

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So much life

I had a bug to write a blog post yesterday. My process of writing is usually very strange because I always start with a prompt rather than a title, and yesterday the prompt came to me. But as with every adult interaction, life just crept on me.

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Its 2022

I was about to type happy new year then I remembered this post where they said the deadline for happy new year was 5th. So technically I am two days too late. (at the time of starting to write this) I genuinely hope your year started on a positive note. Mine was definitely fantastic. I got my Christmas that I so badly wanted to have with B.

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Merry Christmas I guess

Two things prompt my writing… Darkness or nights and music. In my last post I talked about my random 2.00 am nights and my struggle with sleep. One of the things that I now do is listen to something, it helps me not be so aware of my sorrounding and helps me relax. I also use music to help me gather my thoughts and concentrate… Which is the case today. It’s almost midnight on Christmas eve, and weirdly enough, I’m struggling.

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2.00 am

I can not begin to tell you how many posts (actual and draft posts) that I have started to write at 2.00 a.m because my sleep is a literal joke. I think I would classify it as more unstable than group 1 elements in the presence of moisture. OK that might be an exaggeration but you get the drift. Anything can set off my insomnia alarm and sometimes feel like my body does this to test me.

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I’m stylish now

I was trying to figure out a way to introduce this topic because its technically so left field for me. You would think fashion is just that, I mean how hard can wearing clothes be? its one of the basic tasks hat you learn as a toddler. Except its not that easy, especially to a young, plus size woman in a heavily cultural and religious setting. If you though people have opinions on what you chose to wear, now imagine being a fat, Christian, African woman, you really have to multiply that by a factor which in my estimation has to be greater than 5.

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